This performative text investigates whether familial narratives climb into our psyche, crawl under our skin, and transform notions of who we think we are. Specifically, it reveals a connection between familial stories, cultural stories, and the embodiment of them. This autoethnographic account of one family’s instances of sexual abuse examines the relationship between embodied memories of abusive experiences and the familial stories shared about the abuse. This exploration suggests that a tension exists between asexualized abuse stories and adolescent sexualized abusive experience. Stylistically, repetition is used to create a rhythm in the work that functions as the “grain” of the author’s story.
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