As two white women attempting to live differently in white bodies we are damned. Any choice we make is embedded in white supremacy. Damned if we do/speak/act, damned if we don’t. Recognizing this damnation, we began asking where else we could go and how else we could live. In this article, we conceptualize what emerges between “damned if I do, damned if I don’t” as the possibility of disordering whiteness and living differently. We conceptualize our method in this piece as relationship. In relationship, we trace the necessary but impossible, discursive, embodied, and geographic space that is damnation.
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